13 years to mourn Yet the grief is still as real 13 years to heal Yet the wounds remain fresh 13 years to feel Yet we see compassion turn to contempt They say Never Forget Tell me? How could We? Always Remember? Yet some memories continue to fail Take a step back today Pause from... Continue Reading →
To Dance
As you slowly forget The things that were troubling you You lose the concept of how deep is desperate need Instead your soul Gets caught in burning desire Ahoy my hearties, follow me Waves of ecstasy rip through As you lose yourself to the rhythm of the moment Cares cast aside Sweat drips as... Continue Reading →
Almost suicide
Do you know what it is like To hold a knife to your stomach To want with every fiber of your being to push it through To see the blood & intestines run out To find out in that moment if anybody really cares Then to hate yourself even more because you couldn’t do it?... Continue Reading →
The dagger
Your memory is like a dagger to my soul Twisting reality and confusing memories Like autumnal leaves falling to the ground Composting into nothingness Yet the nothingness nourishes The empty death of history Produces new life What of this new twist on reality? Experience used instead of abused A newness to replace the... Continue Reading →
An infatuation with intoxication
I will build a wall I will build a wall to keep you out You will not hurt me No one will hurt me Inside my wall I will hide I will hide while no one hurts me Instead I will hurt myself I will lose myself I will anesthetize I will lose myself to... Continue Reading →
11 Years Ago Today
11 years ago today A one way ticket was used A K1 visa was cashed in A last shot at happiness or the first real leap of faith? 11 years ago today A chasm was bridged 6+ months of agony were ended How can you decide to spend the rest of your life with... Continue Reading →
A weekend to remember
I tender to hold onto things, not like a horder, but little mementoes with the intention of them sparking a memory at a future date. I was cleaning out my office last week & I found this It is a book of matches from a restaurant in Malibu, Ca. This place: Why do I have some... Continue Reading →