whenever I show my true self
whenever the fruits of a better life are borne
they are chastised and rejected
leave the high road they clamor
join us in the sea of sin
what must I do?
where must I go?
to take the necessary steps and not be dragged back immediately
at times it feels like my attempts to become a better person
are akin to an alcoholic recovering while working in a bar
so long as I am stuck on the venomous ocean of freight
yet this will pass, I will pass this test, one day I won’t fail