Give me strength

Alright, you win
You were right
I don’t have it in me
These stupid mfers
With their incomprehensible
Idiocy
Have broken me

I can’t take it
I want to hurt them
I want break them
I want to break something
I want to explode
An atom bomb of venom
Show the world my frustration & my wrath

Such unspeakable anger
Overflowing frustration
These are not words of life
These are not words that heal
How do I learn to deal with frustrations
Without burying them
In a way that keeps me healthy?
The bright light is flickering today
The light is trying to hide

The sad thing is
I want to go along with it
I want to hide
But I will not
I have come to far to go back there now
For now …
My resolve is weakening

Give me strength
Give me help
We both know I cannot do this alone
Why must I continue to face the same test
Over and over?
Regardless of my response?
Surely there has to be another way?