Does the light remove the dark or simply cover it up?
Impossible questions answered by dreams unable to be understood
What is this impossible battle?
The war of invisibility
You didn’t promise it would be easy or comfortable
Only the truth
But what of this enemy, the silent whisperer in the ear
Feel the world, give in to desire, taste what is on offer
Like a recovered addict sensing the calls of old
Give in or stand up?
Stand up for what? Is this not an impossible fantasy of things that simply cannot be?
Or is it true, that power beyond comprehension was given?
Is it fear of not feeling the desires answered?
Or is it fear of what might be possible if the true power is grasped?
Is the dream from another realm true, can it enter this realm & change the universe?
Who am I, what am I to understand?
Why must I face these battles & struggles?
Was I chosen for this or is this just the way it is?
Why didn’t I just take the blue pill? Ignorance was simpler
Ignorance was empty
Truth, struggle, pain, it is real & worthy?
I knew it wouldn’t be easy, but I didn’t know it would be this hard
Sometimes I feel like I’m going to explode
Sometimes I feel like I need to explode
Cut the world to shreds with my tongue
I know I shouldn’t, but it would be so easy to free the beast
Yet, even if I go there, you are there with me
Always ready to pick me up & clean me off
Your love cannot be exhausted
I don’t understand why you can’t just change what’s inside
I cannot comprehend how much you have changed what’s inside
It’s all so confusing
I can’t do this, I never could, I was never worthy
Yet you saw so much more than I could ever see
You see the oak tree, not the acorn
Where to go, what to do, how to be
Talk to me Lord, show me the way, please, give me the message
I don’t believe I was made simply to survive
What would you have me do?